Dream: I am lying on my stomach. I hear, think, feel a voice saying: “It all goes down to the expression:

              “Who is me. – All”.

 Everything is blue. I dissolve into blue, first like a big membrane or shell. I am in everything, I sense, but I cannot gather the senses. I know that I am in Brahman. I know that the expression is all-encompassing.

Dream: A very long dream. I commit myself in all sorts of ways to things that I have no chance of overcoming/managing, while the others around me simply do what they want. I am ignored by the others and the commitments just grow in number. Finally I give up, throw myself down, catch a drink and sob: “I can’t do it anymore, I don’t want to anymore”.

 Dream: I think about committing myself to one thing. At that moment the pulse in the left side of my chest increases and pumps, so that I think that my heart and aorta are about to explode.

 Dream: I am lying naked in a semi-transparent cylinder 3 meters in diameter and 2 meters high. A Japanese lady throws something down on top of me like thanks, reward and respect. What she throws down now falls down from all sides until the cylinder overflows, still with me at the bottom.

 I have used my ability and gift for much of my life to anticipate the needs of others, and then obliged myself to fulfill/solve them – often at the expense of myself. I did it towards my parents, especially my mother. This basic pattern of behavior became my ego behavior. I see how it has locked me up. As a therapist, among other things, it would have destroyed me and deprived me of my degrees of freedom. Therefore, fortunately, it has not become a succes. – My teaching is: 

           Not to anticipate and fulfill, but to see and guide, if people ask.

            Being a messenger is not compatible with obliging and fixing.

 I heal Åse, seeing the blue color in me and in her. Satguru comes and says: “You just continue”. Then he shows a red path in a red sphere, points and says: “Look at this. Do you dare to walk it?” I ask: “What’s happening?” And he answers: “You will disintegrate.” I answer: “I dare” and take a step. He laughs and at the same time the red path turns into gold coins that fall towards me.