From the last few days
I do exercises: I’m siting on my lower legs with my fingertips gently towards each other and look out of the forehead sight. Satguru comes and says: “Why do you reject me?”. I answer: “I don’t reject you”. Satguru: “Yes you do”. Then it dawns on me that seeing him and me as two different people is a rejection of him, by merging into one and looking out through him, I no longer reject.
“Make yourself one with others people and all other creations”.
“You cannot describe or understand life through time”.
The dream from the other day, when I dreamt the same thing 7 times. Seven times I rejected satguru, seven times I was given the opportunity to see. Now I know: “Make yourself one”.
I am shown the following exercise:
I do the exercise above. Satguru comes towards me on a path that opens between us. He says: “Come with me up to the highest height”. I am pulled along and he lifts me up. I am in the head/space of Brahman. I see through my forehead through the changeability of many colors. Then we are down again and each one separately. The path between us is formed again and Satguru now as completely red comes towards me. I repeat my exercises. The path is formed again. Satguru stands some distance from me and opens an orange-yellow door. With a mischievous smile he says: “Here we hide when we are not supposed to be smart”. It is life’s subtle humor and connection to the simple real: “There is room for everything, also to hide and be stupid”.
The page from the Book of God that contains: “God judges no one – there is no judgment”, appears and for the first time I see the duality of the drawing and its meaning:
Your judgment tries to replace your freedom with one predetermined correctness.
There is no judgment – you have the freedom to shape independently of others.
What some see as narrow, can be almost infinite for you.
You can always turn/shape your attention and imagination so that openness becomes impossible/difficult.
Suggested exercise: Sit down. Turn your attention to openness without demands and limits. Allow yourself to sit in it for a while.
Suggested exercise: Sit down. Make the forehead sight. Fill your thought and imagination with “can” and the forehead sight turns your closeness into openness. It happens by itself, just sit and experience.
I do my exercises. I slide up into the Brahman space/vision. It is said: “The highest state is not connected to anything, but lives everything” – All animals and plants run through me (are me) at a furious speed, but still in every split second I experience each individual/creation.
Dream: In front of me is a large yellowish double gate. I grab them and pull them open and behind me with the words: “Away with all the old”.
I do exercises and hear the phrase: “There’s not much the genie can do in its bottle.” Well, so true, so true and straightforward.