I am in the room where Brahman guides me through messages via my dreams.

 Dreams: About my blindness to my own behaviour, it is something that I have heard Åse talk about now and then: E.g. being late, being afraid of being late, not having enough time, saying yes to too much (knowing it well, but can’t stop it in the situation), my way is the best, taking over, bringing order in other people’s mess/lives and several other things. And still I often lost the power to do all that.

Then the sentence: “Go and look in the black mirror”.

 I am inside a room almost like a sphere. On the surface of the sphere is a Brahman-black oval surrounded by a deep black frame. The oval is so black that it feels like it reflects me and my behavior and even what was up to now unconsious to myself. I see the kind of behavior that I have just dreamed about. That is how I am encouraged to touch the mirror. But it’s not a mirror, it’s a hole, but so black that you can’t see. I walk through the opening and see that it’s a very long hallway with an opening at the end. But that’s my first interpretation, because when I look without seeing, it’s a very short hallway, but it narrows sharply. As soon as I walk through the hallway, I shrink so that I fit the height. Simultaneously I see from the outside that in that sphere I take up far too much space, but not just me, but my feelings as well as my thoughts, my memories, my importance. My perception of myself in the world is magnified, so that it fills everything. It feels like I’ve looked into the blind spot of the eye without it being blind. It’s a place where I’ve been able to hide from myself. It’s all suddenly very physical, because it also feels like a walk through my own eye. – Then I’m out in the light, and I hear the satguru’s words: “now as a dancing man”. I look back towards where I came out. It’s just a tiny opening and the world I came from is just a dot. So everything that felt so meaningful and important to preserve and hide is meaningless.

 In all people there is a spot where they can hide everything, but it is also a way out of the grip of the brain and the past.

 You don’t have to be a slave to yourself and your own defined life. It’s always a choice.