Dream: I keep falling. I have no balance or sense of balance. I don’t hit myself because my body falls like a banana. I can’t get up without falling.
Dream: I’m walking with a man. We’re dressed in turmeric-colored clothes. He says something about him and his daughter, and I tell him why and how it’s connected. He says: “How do you know?” and I answer: “That’s clairvoyance.”
Dream: A stone god comes towards me. It’s a god-like figure apparently made of stone. My cerebrum is pulled off, and I look down from above, and my cerebellum turns red. A little later, my spine is exposed and the spinal cord and spinal fluid turn red. Then the stone god slides away again.
Dream: Brahman puts an arm over my right shoulder. I can’t tell whether it’s right or left, or whether it’s from the front or the back. The directions are erased in the dream state. Then my arms and legs are gone. I can sense my head, as usual, but where the arms were before, is only the roundness of the shoulders left, as if I were born without arms. My legs are gone and replaced by the body that ends in a point like the snake god.
Dream: The last dream repeats itself, and I ask: “What should I do in the new state without arms and legs”, and the answer is: “Use your mind”.
Dream: I am struggling with asceticism versus having enough. I slip into the head of Brahman or the Brahman space at the same time as I see it from the side. Brahman speaks with a deep deep thunderous voice: “Take what you want”.
Dream: I am floating in a kind of sphere, where god figures tear/pluck/bite my body to pieces. A voice says: “Do not let yourself become addicted to dissolution, suffering and repetition”. A little later the voice says: “Connect to all”.
These dreams cannot be understood through the past, fear, judgment or for that matter hope and dreams. The dreams return, and are connected with the following:
Life does not seek balance – although we would like to both see it and believe it.
It is not your deeds that matter, it is that you live.
You are dependent on other life in order to survive.
We can do a lot with our brain, but not if it is just a store for the past and tied up in our defense of yourself.
Retention, repetition and immutability fix our mobility and the cerebellum’s ability to separate from that which does not belong to the flow of life and life.
Forbidden is like a fart that must not be laid – it paralyzes life and stops everything.
Dream: I see the dream impulses slide up through the spine into the cerebellum and around the rest of the brain with messages about life. Again the message that dreams cannot be understood through what we know or think we know. I am about to come out of the dream doze, when I become completely limp, lose focus and interest, – I only want to sleep. My perception twists and turns in picture perspectives in different times, perception planes and spaces. Our awake life and our dreams are connected to each other. – Don’t let demands, norms and not enough time separate them.
Demands, prohibitions and norms hold you back as an external and internal power factor that makes you psychopathically dependent on your own perception and on maintaining immutability.